Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Bubble bath

This second-last set of pictures for pic-a-day-in-May was again suggested by my favourite anonymous commenter, "B".    Thank you!   I'm sure you figured out that I needed very little prompting to take half-nekkid self-pics.   During this most stressful time ever, these little risque photo shoots were a nice distraction for me, therapeutic, even.

After our lawyer-mediated session on Monday, there was silence from my wife for two days.  No texts, e-mails, phone calls or messages relayed by the kids.   Normally, we text or e-mail many times each day.  I knew that it would take my wife (and me) some time to recover emotionally from our mediation.

The mediation was just was so insanely intense and after 2.5 years of never-ending turmoil, it represented one of the final steps before our marriage was over.   For me, it was a mixture of sadness mixed a feeling of excitement:  "I've escaped!"   For my wife, I'm sure there was no anticipation of an exciting new life ahead of her, just anger, bitterness and sadness.

Just last week at my workplace, a young woman who works closely with my wife exclaimed, "She loves you, you know!  She loves you!!  Can't you two work it out? "  That broke my heart because maybe there was some truth to it.  I didn't want to tell her that we couldn't remain married;  I was gay and couldn't love my wife the way she deserved.   I excused myself and found a private place to shed a few tears;  those raw emotions again!

In the mediation post, I didn't mention that my wife was also refusing to pay her share of a separate, $1,700 fee payable when we file for divorce with the courts.  This evening, I received this e-mail from my wife:

"Hi.  I will pay half the divorce.  At the time I was trying to keep from crying and that just seemed to come out as a way from preventing the tears. __________"

 I replied:
"Thank you.  The mediation was the most stressful thing I've ever experienced but I am proud of both of us for getting through it."      .....Wow....


21 comments:

  1. Okay... now I am going to be a copy cat again and have to do the bubble bath shoot... but not for the May Challenge ....later after I shed a few more pounds, or maybe not... I should also say, sorry for what you have been through with your ex-wife, but in the end you both will be better off not living a lie...I wish the best for you as you venture down your new path...and look forward to continuing to see more of you physically and emotionally on this blog... nice pics!!!

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    1. anne marie in phillyMay 30, 2012 at 9:53 PM

      dooooo eeeeet! NOW!!!!!

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    2. Thanks for commenting, Kelly! I'd say go for the bubble bath pic now, with lots of bubbles.... Then you can reveal only those body parts that you really want to and keep the rest hidden!

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    3. Less bubbles next time? Great pics. I'm sure that your wife still loves you. To the extent that she is capable of loving. Not everyone is capable, once we understand that, it helps me the pieces fall into place and make more sense. At least that is what I believe.

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  2. I like blowing bubbles...it's fun!

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  3. anne marie in phillyMay 30, 2012 at 9:53 PM

    I second sean!

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  4. That's EXTREMELY unlikely to occur! Thanks for asking, however!

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  5. Wow! I've never taken a bath like THAT before. Looks like my parents taught me to do it a little differently than yours. Their way is so boring.

    There is one thing missing in all of those pics... ME!

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  6. Buddy Bear,I'm glad that our photoshoot thing was a stress reliever to you and I feel happy that I helped.As for the pics,I'm loving all the pics especially the one of you in all fours.Just giving a hardon making me wanna be behind you dude and just do you.You are so hot dude.!!!
    Kinda sad that the month was over because I do have lots of naughty ideas for my canadian hunk.Maybe you should do a pic aday for June too.

    As for for your last picture of the month,I guess you should choose the theme.Choose something sexy and sensual and of course showcasing your best asset,your ass.

    Do not feel guilty about your wife.As you yourself had said you cannot love her the way she is supposed to love as you are a gay dude.So by divorcing you are not only finding the right guy to love but also allowing your ex-wife to find a guy that can love her the way she is supposed to be loved.

    thick about the June/pic suggestion dude.We wuld make a good team.

    B

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  7. Extremely unlikely? For now maybe. LOL

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  8. Buddy..i just joined this site called Lifeout.Are you in Lifeout?
    Hot Pics !

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  9. Good luck with the next few weeks. Not sure what follows after mediation but perhaps the worst is now past you.

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  10. "Just last week at my workplace, a young woman who works closely with my wife exclaimed, "She loves you, you know! She loves you!! Can't you two work it out? "

    One of the lessons one learns in life is that if a couple could and were interested in working it out they probably would do so in their own way and in their own time. In the meantime, all the rest of us just can assure them that we respect the boundaries required by the divorcing couple as they go through thier process, we continue to like them as individuals as much or as little as we ever did, and we will not choose sides. Sounds like you and your wife are teaching this young woman this lesson. Prayers for all of you.

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    1. Being in a similiar boat. I have discovered that John Lennon was WRONG! You need more than love. My wife and I still love each other, but it isn't enough anymore. It is sad. Very sad, but true.

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  11. Great photos. I think I like the one with your butt in the air the most :)

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    1. Thank you! The ass-in-the-air pic is my least favourite, actually, and I almost didn't include it. I liked the last one the best... me sitting semi-upright with my foot over the side.

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  12. Sexy and excellent candid photos. Of you taking a bubble bath.....

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  13. Studying the bubble bath photos...Being also naked. Being naked with you would be enjoyable.....

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