Looking back on nearly three years of blog entries, I've realized that my blog has become my own personal diary of my incredible journey: of coming-out, separation, divorce and my gay sexual awakening. I laid out the horror of those early days, my fears and uncertainties but without my blog record, I would already have forgotten how terrifying and exciting it really was.
My concerns are: (1) many events in the past two months of my gay journey are going unrecorded and (2) I am missing the expert advice and support from my online friends such as anne marie, Sean (Jeep Guy), Will, Jay and others. I've come to rely on all of you enormously!
My blogging has been interrupted due to extremely limited computer access; my computer was fried by the lightning strike. I do have a laptop computer provided by my employer, since most classroom teaching in my new school is done electronically. But I dare not use it for anything other than educational purposes. Viewing porn on school computers would be grounds for dismissal!
My ex and I have collaborated closely and in a professional, supportive manner (via texting) to par our costs to the bare minimum in all areas, and I will soon be through my latest financial crisis.
But I'm finding myself almost too busy for hookups. I am very busy teaching at my exciting new school (my classes are going fabulously!), working out at our Athletic Complex (the workouts are lackluster but the hunky-dude eye candy is spectacular), visiting my elderly parents most days and walking my energetic Australian shepherd for an hour each day.
But here are few teasers on my gay scene:
- I had a sweet hookup with a 32 year old aboriginal dude who works for a social service agency some 300 km away. He was 6'-4" with a beautiful, smooth torso and a thick, short-ish cock. Aboriginal men are among my favourites: fabulous kissers, relaxed and very much "in the moment."
- I have a new special friend, a slim, thick-cocked, handsome, computer-nerd, 35 years old. He's looking for a regular fb and likes older guys. I'm hoping we become regulars, too, because I'm spending too much time on squirt.org and pof.com arranging hookups which don't ever happen.
- I was asked to an threesome yesterday night with a hunky, handsome 40 year old military dude (who I hooked up with last year. Woof!) but the other partner was his girlfriend!!!
- Both were craving cock and the expectation was that I would have sex with her AND then stick my cock up his ass, while the other watched. Although I would have loved to be with him again, regretfully, I had to decline. I just can't imagine dealing with a va-jay-jay. Been there, done that!