Then I had a 90 minute tantric massage with fellow blogger Rick who has a tantric massage practice. I probably will not blog about it, certainly not without Rick's permission, but his massages are always pleasurable.
My visit was doubly pleasurable because it was followed by a fantastic dinner with Rick and his husband, both charming hosts with an lifetime of experience in all things gay.
I learned so much during our lively conversation, especially when Rick (at my request), showed me his favourite cock stroking techniques using a carved wooden dildo as a model. ;-)
After the massage, I was left with several thoughts:
- I have so much to learn about giving pleasure to a man.
- I have even more to learn about receiving pleasure.
- I am more determined than ever to seek training in tantric massage myself; soon!
Blank Profile: Very adorable.
Buddy Bear: I don't talk to blank profiles.
Blank Profile: 33.Bi married curious guy here. One son. U seem to be very close.
Buddy Bear: Yep. Standing on the corner of Bloor and Yonge. What do you want?
Blank Profile: Love passionate, cuddly fun. I want to meet you.
Buddy Bear: Okay. Where?
Blank Profile: I am driving. Wait outside Tim Hortons on Yonge north of Bloor, east side. I will flash lights.
Two minutes later, I jumped into a SUV; the driver was gorgeous: sad, hungry brown eyes, brown hair, Latin, with beefy thighs which filled out his jeans beautifully. He resembled the hot men pictured in this post.
He parked on a quieter side street one block away. It was just after dark but we were near one of Toronto's busiest street corners so there were plenty of passers-by.
He was deeply troubled and told me his whole sad story. Born on the island of Majorca but now a Canadian citizen, he fooled around with men as a teen but ended up marrying a woman. The social, family and Catholic Church pressures were just too much to bear. "It's just a mess... my family will be ruined. But I love my son more than anything in the world. I need to be with a man, not just like this but all the time."
Hungry Spaniard: And the worst part of all is that I'm alone. I can't talk about it to anyone."
Buddy Bear: Baby, you're not alone. You're talking to me. And there are a million men online who are in the exactly same situation as you. (note: I was rubbing the bulge in his jeans and was rewarded with a stiffening cock.)
Hungry Spaniard: I'll have to go on like this forever. It will kill my wife if she knew.
Buddy Bear: Maybe she needs to know. It will be worse if she finds out at 55 like my wife. She is young enough to start a new life. You will destroy yourself by keeping this hidden. And eventually, you will get caught. Wives always know that their husband doesn't really want them.
Hungry Spaniard: I love my wife.
Buddy Bear: Your attraction to men will get stronger and stronger as you get older. It will not go away. Do you know that?
Hungry Spaniard: Yes I do.
Suddenly he looked over with hunger and lust and lunged at me and kissed. He was a fantastic kisser (of course!)...like a drowning man trying to save himself. Hot!
He quickly unzipped both his jeans and mine and offered up his beautiful, fat, hard cock. I applied silicone lube* and tried out my new repertoire of Rick's cock massage moves. He gasped aloud in pleasure: "No one's ever done that to me before!"
* Total slut that I am, I was going around Toronto carrying my lube and other sex supplies. lol
We made out with an insane intensity for about ten minutes with frequent interruptions as pedestrians walked by. Finally, I crouched between his legs as he sat in the driver's seat, covered his lap and my head with my jacket. I finished him off with a blowjob as he cried aloud. It was a gusher!
Hungry Spaniard: I have to go. My wife's waiting for me.
Buddy Bear: Hey baby, handsome guy! I wish you all the best. Now I'm going to have to worry about you.
With that, he gave me a sweet smile, the first of the evening, we kissed one final time and I disappeared into the night.
I texted him on Grindr:
I wanted to say how much I enjoyed our encounter. Passionate and intense! But I was sad to see how troubled you were about your sad situation. Courage is needed! Your family will get through this!
I strongly suggest that you go to a therapist to talk it out. It will be very helpful to you but he will be ask the toughest question of all: "What do you want?" Not what does your wife or son want, but what do YOU want. Good luck!
Hungry Spaniard replied:
It was a real pleasure meeting u, your so sexy, handsome
Thanks for the wonderful time and also good advice.