These recent events were a bit of an eye-opener for the kids and we have had some extremely honest conversations about it all; another step forward! The kids and I are cautiously optimistic that things will be calmer by tomorrow evening.
A while ago, blogger buddy Jim in Dallas did a great post about his online versus real-life personality. Numerous bloggers such as Nice to See Stevie B responded with thoughtful posts on the subject. Now, it's my turn! This post is all about me, me, me!! Please believe me: in my real life, I am nowhere near this self-absorbed and narcissistic.
My main goal is to be as honest and true-to-life as I possibly can on my blog. Otherwise, what would be the point? I hope that my real-life personality matches my blogging personality and for the most part, I think it does.
For privacy, I must limit the amount of specific detail provided while still providing a fundamental understanding of the situation. I'm also finding it a challenge to blog my story without revealing too many details of the other players in the story.
I don't show my face and name on my blog and probably never will. I admire the courage of the many bloggers such as Tom, Cubby, Sean, Kelly, Dr. Spo and Jim who use their pictures and names online. If I revealed my identity online, my blog would require serious editing, both in the pictures used (especially of myself!) and in my thoughts and stories that I tell. My blog would have to become "G-rated"; that would be no fun at all!
My personal situation would become infinitely more complicated if it was known that I was blogging my coming out, separation and divorce in real time. If my blog became known to my employer and to those I serve in my job, it would be extremely embarrassing (to say the least.) As well, this likely would result in a written caution from the organization which governs my profession.
My real-life personality which (I think) emerges in my blog:
- On the job, I am viewed as being extremely serious and diligent. I am known for providing the clearest possible explanations and assessments of any situation. I'm pretty sure that I am a very good writer. When I'm with a receptive audience such as my closest colleagues, I can be extremely funny and even outrageous on a daily basis.
- I am not at all shy or self-conscious and spend my day speaking in front of large groups of people. My largest audience was about 1,300 people who I addressed with no trepidation at all. In most respects, I am the least self-conscious and least self-aware person that I know. Maybe this is why I don't mind posting half-nekkid pics of myself; I just don't give a hoot what anyone else thinks!
- I am normally very positive, rational and optimistic with the strength to persevere through extremely difficult life situations. I take the adage "Don't sweat the small stuff" to the extreme. I was very lucky early in life because I was forced to learn that everything is small stuff, except for our health. Everything else will work itself out; eventually. Throughout my adult life, family, friends (both real-life and online), colleagues and even casual acquaintances have constantly commented on this aspect of myself. This character trait, I think, shines through in my blog.
To be continued in the next post: how my online and real-life personalities differ. Topics to include:
- my reluctance to reveal moments of anxiety and despair
- my online exhibitionism
- my online ogling of hot guys
- my (future) descriptions of hookups, assuming I ever have any!