Saturday, February 12, 2011
What do you want?
I always gave an evasive non-answer. "I want my kids to come out of this not all screwed up.", " I want my wife to be happy." etc. The questioner would then repeat the question more forcefully, "What do YOU want?" I wouldn't answer honestly.
Finally, I now know the one thing which I want more than anything: a divorce. I just want to be free of the drama, conflict and bitterness. Although our conversations over the phone can be quite civil, during face-to-face meetings, the hurt, bitterness, personal attacks and hatred often come spilling out. I understand why these feelings are there, but they make communication and planning for our future impossible.
I plan to talk to a therapist soon. I hope to find out what can one person do to get another to move past these negative emotions and to begin talking constructively. We have to be talking to each other if there is any hope of ending with the best possible outcome for everyone in the family.
I know time will help, but I fear this will require a very, very long time indeed.
at 12:17 PM