Afterglow

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Doing the Nasty

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Continued from my previous post, Losing My Gay Virginity!   For the experienced gay guys reading this, my first sexual  encounter with a guy might seem a very  "plain vanilla", even boring,  in terms what we did. 

For me it was  the most intensely sensual, sexual experience of my entire life  (so far, at least)

What made it so special?

• The main difference here, obviously, was that I was with a man,  Although I'm quite sure that I would still be able to have sex with a beautiful woman and enjoy it,  at that instant, I finally discovered that my primary sexual and emotional interest was with  men. 
• I was in bed with a sweet, thoughtful young man who I was intensely attracted to, both emotionally and sexually.  I didn't have to "work at it" or worry about losing my erection as I used to during heterosexual sex.  I was hard as a rock!
• I have long moved past the insecurities and lack of self-confidence of my 20s which would have spoiled the moment.  Although I had no experience at all (for example, did not know how to give / receive a blowjob)  I was determined not to worry about it.  Hottie Nurse went into this knowing fully who he was dealing with.  My gay virginity might have been part of my appeal to him;  I didn't ask.
• I was fully "present", enjoying every second as it occurred.  Throughout I thought, "I can't believe I'm doing this!   Savour it!!"  The sense of unreality was so intense that it felt like an out-of-body experience.   I knew darn well that this sort of opportunity doesn't coming along every day for old farts like me.
• It was the very first time that I didn't have to take the lead during sex.  Hottie Nurse was extremely aggressive and very much a "take charge" kind of guy.   It took me a few moments to allow myself to surrender to that aggression, to not take the lead, but once I did, it was fantastic!  unreal!   
• Once, I did flip Hottie Nurse onto his back and took charge for a bit.  I thought it  was like the hottest, most sensual naked wrestling match ever.
• A terrible, horribly-embarassing disclosure:  this was the first time I'd had sex with another person in fourteen years.  While this may seem bizarre to many people, I know that the majority of closeted  gay guys with children, married to an angry, aging wife, face the same situation.... a non-existent marital sex life.  

In writing this post, I'm focusing on my thought and emotions of this encounter.  I don't think writing porn is in my future; I  just can't write smut convincingly.   Hard to describe what we did, but here it goes!

"What now?" I asked.  He said with some irony, "You have to take your clothes off!" and gestured at the bed with a sweeping motion of his arm.  Each of us dropped our clothes on the floor, jumped into bed and off we went!   He rolled on top of me and began kissing, aggressively, deeply, with an intensity I'd never experienced.  Is it possible to have a muscular tongue and lips?  Well, he had 'em!

He was certainly the best kisser I've ever had;  alternating kissing my lips and then sucking them, kissing, sucking, kissing...  deep tonguing.  The kissing went on forever and I was pressed deeper and deeper into the mattress by his force.  I tried to give back as good as I got, but he was just so aggressive!  I felt his hot breath on me eveywhere.

He continued tonguing and kissing the rest of me, ears, up my neck, and down my neck, into its crook  He  grabbed both my arms and pushed them over my head and licked my pits..long slow, thorough licks  I thought it would be tickish... and a bit weird, but it was fine.  Hairy pits were his favourite thing, it seems.

He then licked and nibbled up and down my torso. sucking on my nips (not much feeling there) and back up to my mouth again..


While he was kissing, I reached down and grabbed onto his cock... It was as hard as skin-covered steel!   Oh, to be in my 20s again!   I got the firmest possible grip on his cock with my fist and he thrust his pelvis as thought he was getting a hand job.   His pelvis pumped  back and forth with increasing frequency.  I loved the feeling of his foreskin in my hand retracting back and forth. ,While I had his whole cock in my hand, I SQUEEZED the end rubbed my thumb around the base of the head;  it must have felt great!   He did the same to my cock, while he licked my pits and sucked my lips.

At one point, I pointed his cock at my virgin ass  and he continued to hump, thrusting into my ass crack.  No penetration of course, but that pressure on the end of his cock must have felt good to him;  it felt good to me!

Still on my back , I spread my my legs spread wide and he shifted position, lying between my legs with our cocks pressed together.  He ground his cock into mine.  Each of us was grinding our pelvises into the other, grinding, grinding, grinding, up and down, side to side and then in a circular motion.  .... super hot..... I think might be called dry humping or frottage.  I think it was the thrusting that made it so hot... it is just such a natural movement for men.

After a very long time ...had to have been an hour.. of him exploring every part of my body (except my ass and cock) and with me reciprocating.... much of the time I was pinned to the mattress and he took charge.

He allowed me to flip him over and I licked my way down his torso to his cock and took it in my mouth. My first blowjob!   It was very large in girth at the bottom and oddly skinny at the end.  At the first mouthful, I thought, "Oh my God, I can't take it in!"   I had to open my mouth wider than was comfortable at first.  The girth at his cock's base was so much, it was hard to take in.

Slowly, slowly I began pumping his cock with my lips, from base to tip of his cock, applying as much pressure as I could muster.  I'm thinking, "No teeth!!"  I varied the routine by intense tonguing of the end of his cock and in/around his foreskin while pumping the shaft with my hand.   After (I think) several minutes,  I tried for  some 'deep throat' action, taking his entire cock in my mouth again and ramming the end into the back of my throat with some force.   I was surprised when I only gagged slightly several times. I loved it... this was my favourite part.  Feeling his cock ramming into the back of my mouth, knowing that would just be driving him insane with pleasure as the nerves compressed.   I continued this with increasing frequency, faster, faster., faster.... He wasn't very vocal but was lying back,  groaning slightly, eyes closed, abs clenching.

With out letting up, I focussed all the pressure on the last inch of his cock, grind, grind grind with my mouth until I felt his cock pulsing in my hand and mouth.  I held his cock in my mouth for a moment, motionless,until the pulsing stopped and then I slowly, slowly pulled away, keeping pressure on it all the while.

I said to him, "There wasn't much volume there!"  He said that he jerked off before he came to pick me up, so he wouldn't come too soon.  Again, to be in my 20s again!

We changed positions and he began to work on my cock.  It felt great:  my first blowjob ever.   He licked up and down my cock, paused, deep throated a bit.... constantly changing.   I started to think that he wasn't very good at it.  He would play with the head, deep throat a bit to bring me to the edge and then stop and lick my balls or something.  A bit of a disappointment, just slightly, as after while I knew I wouldn't come.

Like any middle-aged man, I needed some continuous, unrelenting action at the end of my cock to come.  After several minutes him of working my cock (don't get me wrong, it felt fantastic!!), it started to move from pleasure to pain ... just overly sensitive, so I had him stop.  I might have come just a bit, but I'm not sure.   Had I known him better, and had I know an expert cocksucker does to get a guy off, I would have made a few suggestions.  But the fact that I didn't come was not a big deal.... it was a fantastic, memorable experience!  Being my first time, I probably was a bit anxious as well.

Again, this post is long enough.  In two days,  I will describe (to me) the best part of our encounter, the afterglow.  ..... lying together naked for a couple of hours with our limbs twined, holding each other tight, talking about sex, laughing, teasing.  And finally,  him napping with his head on my chest.  Sweetness!

My Gay Virginity Lost!

Actual picture of Hottie Nurse

Rather, I lost some of my gay virginity but certainly not all of it. 

On Monday, I started my work training in a small city several hours outside of Toronto.  On my first night, I set up my first-ever profile on a gay dating / hookup site.  I used my actual face picture and lots of my Undie Monday pictures.  My tagline:

"47 year old newly-out, formerly married gay virgin wants to get close to a guy for the first time ever.  I just want to suck a guy's cock.  If you wanted to suck mine, that would be okay, too."

On Tuesday, I received this message:  "hey I am interested I would so like to meet u my name is Alex!! And late 40's is cool I like men not boys lol. So let me know where u are and when we can meet up I am free pretty much all day friday!! So let me know."  BOING!!

Alex's profile read:

28, 6'0", 165lb, 32w, Swimmer's, Brown Hair, Smooth, White, Looking for Friendship, 1-on-1 Sex, Misc Fetishes, Relationship.   looking for masc men 30+, Pref hairy and average body type muscular is good too but that's not a requirement!   Also have a thing for bald men!! And for sweaty sex!! love licking a mans armpits mmmmmmm :) but not into stink!  Into kissing, sucking, licking, body contact, fucking and of course getting fucked!!! 100% VERS    And Guys please have a face pic!! Thanx

Alex is a nurse;  that is his actual profile picture above, but I cropped out his face.  He also included a couple of full-frontal pics of himself which I won't share here.  Magnificent, uncut cock.  Although he said he was 28, he looked more like 21. 

Over the next two days, Hottie Nurse sent me over 30 text messages as we gradually got to know each other.   He proposed a date on Saturday at noon when my course was finished.  This was the first time that I was available.  Since he was coming off the night shift, he asked if I would want to cuddle with him, naked, when he had his afternoon sleep; I would sleep as well.  I said, "Count me in!!"   How sweet was that!

At an early stage, I was concerned that Hottie Nurse was naturally smooth and had shaved pubes, the complete opposite of me.  I told him that I had rampant pubic hair and an extremely hairy ball (singular) and a hairy shaft.  I offered to shave my ball and shaft and trim my pubes.  He responded "Yes, please!"  Such a polite Canadian boy!   He added that under no circumstances was I to shave my chest or pits as those were his biggest turn-ons.   I would never have done that, anyway;  I love my fur!

He wanted to hear my voice so we arranged for him to phone me on Friday morning (the day before our planned date) during my coffee break.  He phoned right on schedule.  I asked him, "You do know that I'm over twenty years older than you?"   He responded, "Age is just a number!"   How sweet is that!!  He also commented that he was a pretty relaxed guy;  just go with the flow!  We had a great talk ... very natural and unforced.

He asked if I was smoker. (I don't, he does).   He was quite worried about this and promised to not smoke in the hours before we met and use mouthwash before hand.  I said, "You're a sexy young man who wants to take me into his bed.  Do you think I'll be bothered by a little bit of smoke?  I don't think you get how huge this is for me ....  a middle-aged old fart, a gay virgin like me to be with a hot guy like you?"

He said he wanted me to have good time with him.  I said not to worry, "Every single moment I spend with you will be exciting for me.  I guarantee it.  I want to make sure that you have a good time as well .... that's important to me."

After our phone call, he sent me a dozen texts of increasing intensity which I responded to during class.  Naughty!!   Finally he said, "I can't wait any more!.... I want to see you now!!"  I agreed and told my teacher that I needed to miss my afternoon and evening classes due to my spinal pain.  Liar!   Hottie Nurse was to pick me up in one hour at my university residence.

What followed resembled a slapstick comedy show.  I ran back, twenty minutes in the sweltering heat and humidity, sweaty, disheveled and stinking to high heaven.  I had a quick shower and slathered my cock and ball in shaving cream and quickly shaved myself 'down under'.  Hacking away at your genitals with a razor is a lot more difficult than you could ever imagine.... especially when it is done as a race against time.  I did the deed and discovered that razor nicks on your scrotum bleed very much less than nicks on your face;  who knew?  

I shaved my face to avoid giving Hottie Nurse whisker burn, trimmed my nose and ear hairs, had a second shower, put on my sexiest "fuck me" underwear, jumped into my clothes and raced out the door.

While all this was going on, Hottie Nurse was texting me continuously (while driving!) giving me updates, "Fifteen minutes!" then "I'm turning onto your street!" and "Meet me out front!"  The intensity was insane!   I was thinking,  "Am I really doing this?"

He pulled up, I jumped into his car and off we went!  (Yes, I broke every safety rule by getting into the car of someone who I'd never met.  In fact, he looked a lot like Jeffrey Dahmer.   Kids, do as I say, not as I do)   He wasn't very talkative, but  conversation flowed as we drove to his home the next city, 30 minutes away.  I asked him about his family, his job and past relationships.  Hottie Nurse had been in a LTR with a 44 years old guy for four years, but they split up a year ago.   He asked me about my marriage and my gay coming-out story.  He was very sweet and funny and a very aggressive driver.

We arrived at his rented townhouse where I was introduced  to a late 30ish divorced woman who he shared the house with (awkward!) and went to his bedroom.   I stood there feeling as awkward and uncertain as a foolish virgin from the 1950's .....

This post is long enough;  the description of us 'doing the nasty' warrants its own post.   To be continued in two days....