BosGuy recently asked the question "When was your gay adolescence?", that sense of exuberance and exploration experienced by men who come out in later life. It is like being a teenager again, exploring one's sexuality except with an infinitely greater self-confidence which only comes with life experience.
The "must-see" movie Beginners deals with the subject of gay adolescence. Christopher Plummer plays a terminally-ill widower in his 70s who is going through a gay adolescence and takes a young male lover.
Now, my gay adolescence will look very different than if I had come out in the early 80s as a young man and had a "slut phase" then. It is likely that I wouldn't have survived, given the state of HIV / AIDS at that time.
Today, I have a strong desire to continue to be a positive role model to my children. I would not want my children to know that I was whoring around our small town, s*cking and f*cking every guy that crossed my path. It is
I hope to be in a LTR with some nice guy my age after a period of several years. Several formerly married gay guys my age have shared with me their experiences with online hookup sites. The consensus: online hookup sites are NOT the route to take for guys like us. Mr. Right is more likely to be found in gay community groups, gay committees, gay dads' groups and gay sports leagues.
And again, to all my friends who have expressed concerns about my well-being during this part of my journey. I promise that I will be safe, sensible and cautious. I would never place myself in a situation where I would be taken advantage of or be influenced by peer pressure. I am highly cautious, methodical and a major planner. When it is the right time and situation for me to lose my gay virginity, I'll be the first to know.