Muscular man thighs

This post is decorated with pics from the tumbler site manthighs Thighs are one of my favourite parts of a man's body.  I love squeezing a man hard between my thighs... and I love when a guy squeezes me.

Through my employer's Employee Assistance Programme, I had a one-hour session session this week to discuss a couple of problems I've been having with my ex-wife.  I don't actually know if he was a marriage counsellor, therapist or some other sort of mental health professional but I left the session feeling empowered and invigorated.

I had foolishly thought that my ex-wife and I would finally be done with each other, four years after coming out to her and after three years of separation and nearly one year of divorce. But I'm still as enmeshed * with her as ever;  in some ways, her behaviour has become more erratic.

*Dr. Spo first introduced me to this term!

Problem #1:  Annoying and even abusive texting.  I would NEVER voluntarily text my ex-wife for any reason and she sometimes goes for a whole month without texting me at all.  But on other occasions, she will text me thirty times in one day and these can come at any time:  6:00 am or midnight or when I'm in class.   I should say that a few of the texts are constructive or at least neutral.

But too many of the texts are usually downright rude and often involve some conflict she's having with one of the kids where she expects me to intervene and "talk some sense" into one of the kids.  These texts are always stressful and invariably, I can't support her unreasonable demands which just causes her anger to escalate.  She always to have the last word.

If I don't respond instantly, she will text repeatedly:  "Well!!!!!??????!" and send the same text over and over. Incidentally, she demands an instant response with all the kids as well (which they hate) but if they text her, she might not respond for days.

My ex has taken all the fun out of owning a SmartPhone.  I love getting texts from my kids, friends and especially, from the hot guys who want to have sex with me.  But when a "bing" signals the arrival of a text, my heart sinks and I assume it's another unreasonable demand from my wife.  It's become an instrument of abuse and there is no escaping it, 24/7.

EXAMPLE:  Last week, I mentioned casually to my eldest daughter that her mother texted me 15 times during the school day about some issue.  Eldest daughter said, angrily: "Mom's been at me about this all week!  Now she's trying to get at me through you!  I"M GOING TO TELL HER TO STOP TEXTING YOU!!!!"   I asked her not to:  my ex goes ballistic if she knows that we've been talking about her.

The kids and some friends have urged me to block my ex but I want to take the high road and consider the bigger picture.  As co-parents, we still need to maintain contact.   I feel that blocking her would be a provocative act which would poison every future contact between us which might occur at big family events such as the marriages of our children or births of grandchildren.
 
Problem #2:  Excessive spending on the kids.  Our divorce agreement dealt with child support differently for each of the three kids.  We have no financial obligation for our eldest daughter (now 22) who is an independent adult.   We committed to providing equal funding towards our middle daughter (now 19) as we are able, towards her university tuition and other education expenses only.

Our son (17.3 years old) is our only dependent child.  Each of us is required pay for our son's daily upkeep when he is living at our respective homes and  to discuss in advance the big purchase (such as a ski membership or new snowboots).  For these larger expenses, we usually split the cost evenly between us.  This system has worked fairly well until recently.

But in recent months, my wife has spent a few thousand dollars on items for all the kids (over their objections) and billing me half of the cost which I cannot afford.  The vast majority of the spending does not adhere to our divorce agreement and she is unwilling / unable to provide receipts or any form of accounting.  The kids are angry at her for this latest tactic and urge me not to pay.
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I must continue this text on Monday because Miner Dude will be coming to my house for another round of sexytime very soon.  I must wash up!

The therapist give me some exceedingly sensible, balanced advice which I am now following.  What do you think he suggested as the best course of action?

TMI: "DO THESE JEANS MAKE MY BUTT LOOK FAT?"

This is one of the most difficult Too Much Information question sets so far, I think.  Well, done, Sean!  I don't think if myself as lying, ever, but I guess that I do. 

I am extremely busy this morning so I'm just going to zoom through these questions.  I have three class sets of unmarked exams to mark;  I hope to have all my marking AND report cards done before the weekend!

1. What's the most creative lie you've ever told?  I've never told an elaborate lie.  I'm just not a good liar, truth be told.  My face always gives me away and I'd worry endlessly about being found out.

2. What lie do you wish you could take back?  About five years before the end of our marriage, my wife asked me: "Are you gay?"   I said "no"....  Although I believed it at the time, I also know that I wasn't 100% straight.  If I had told the truth, my gay journey would have started at 43 rather than 48.

3. How long could you go without lying? Even a white lie.  I tell little white lies quite often online, sometimes every day.  When some really obese guy my age messages me on squirt, I NEVER say:  "You're too fat!"  I'm sure he hears that often enough.  I usually say:  "I can't host .... my kids are here."

But in real life, I like to think that I rarely tell white lies.  I will either hold my tongue or comment on something carefully and honestly without being hurtful.

4. Are you more honest when you comment anonymously?  I never comment anonymously;  I think it can be a cowardly thing to do.  Although "Buddy Bear" doesn't reveal my real name, I'll admit, plenty of people now know my real identity.

5. Does the truth hurt?  Yes, sometimes the truth can be extremely hurtful and I am always acutely conscious of that.  I've observed "friends" tell my ex-wife some terrible truths about herself which cut deep.  Some people have an almost a self-righteous attitude of "getting something off my chest" which sometimes can be really cruel.

6. What was the worst thing that happened to you because of a lie?   The worst was the lie I told to myself about not being attracted to men for so many decades.  But I can easily excuse myself because it wasn't lying so much as being ill-informed about what "gay" really meant and felt like, deep-rooted denial and lack of courage.

7. Who do you lie to the most - yourself or others?  I never lie to myself, I hope.  But I sometimes tell white lies to others to spare their feelings or (I'll admit) because I lack the courage to be honest with them.


8. Is there a difference between a secret and a lie?  Sometimes keeping someone's secret is a necessary and honourable thing.  But lies can hurt another person's life.

I often meet (ie:  hook up) with men in their 20s who have a girlfriend and I always tell them some variation of:  "You can't keep on having sex with men behind you're girlfriend's back. This isn't going to go away.  Either tell her the truth or allow her to move on." and  "Don't destroy your girlfriend's life the way I destroyed my ex-wife's life."  I feel very strongly about this.

9. Truth or Dare?  Was this some TV quiz show?  This is probably another cultural reference which is lost on me because I didn't grow up watching American TV.

10. Does the mirror ever lie?   The mirror always tells the stark truth, but the truth is harsher in some mirrors than another.   The bare fluorescent light bulb in my bathroom doesn't do my haggard face any favours when I just get out of bed in the morning.   I sometimes don't recognize myself!  

But if I look at my face in mirror lit by candle light, I don't look half bad!

11. Does the mirror have two faces?   I don't know what that means!  I would say, "No!"

12. How old are you?  51.5 years old

13. How much do you weigh?  194 pounds, my heaviest weight ever.  (I'm 5'-10", maybe slightly taller)  Ten years ago, I considered 170 pounds to be my ideal weight but looking at pictures of myself from that time, my face looks way too skinny, but I liked the way the rest of me looked.

BONUS
Is it really that big?  Yes, I always post my exact cock size on my online profiles. Why lie? And my cock almost always compares very well with whatever other man I'm with.  I've never had a complaint!

Are you really vers?  I'd say a qualified "yes."  I'd only bottom for some average- or smaller-cocked experienced guy who I have been with before and who I trust.  This doesn't happened too often.  I'm still on a quest to become a great bottom who truly craves it. 

I've topped plenty of times but only when the other guy begs me for it.   Sometimes I feel under pressure to top when I don't really want to.  Sometimes I wonder if I'm a real "top" at all.

Just how old is that pic?  I always refresh the ten pictures I'm allowed to have on Squirt and discard the oldest ones.   So they're usually less than two years old but most are very recent.

Worshipping the frenulum

I had intended to post about my first Pride planning meeting last night.*   But I was distracted by this gay-gif of a Chris Pine lookalike paying attention to some lucky guy's frenulum. 

* The Pride planning meeting exceeded my expectations.  I was blown away by the hard work, intelligence, experience and commitment of the other committee members.  I'll be posting a great deal about our Pride planning in the months to come.

When I was young, the term "cock-sucker" was the ultimate derogatory term, used to denote someone who was weak or somehow deviant.  I'm sorry to say that even my father used it but only in extreme situations.

Now, I feel that being a cocksucker is the ultimate power trip, having a man's' most prized possession in my mouth with him under my complete control

I like to think that I can take the most masculine, muscle-bound resistant dude and turn him into a whimpering, yearning hot mess with my oral skills.

I never tire of circling the corona of a hard cock with my tongue and working the frenulum, the triangular area on the underside where the cock head meets the shaft.   I alternate between very soft, rapid tongue flicks and pressing my tongue as hard as possible into the triangular area. 

Then, just as he realizes what pleasure awaits him,  I ease off or stop entirely and watch his reaction, his thighs opening wider in an invitation and his hips yearning upwards, trying to reconnect his cock head with my lips. 

I love being a tease.... oh, the power of sucking a guy's cock!  But I don't tease for too long as that would be really mean and deprive myself of my pleasure as well.
  
Here's what Wikipedia says about the frenulum:   "The frenulum and the associated tissue delta on the underside of the penis below the corona is "very reactive" and "particularly responsive to touch that is light and soft."  The underside of the shaft of the penis, meaning the body below the corona is a “source of distinct pleasure.” ..... two extremely sensitive specific locations that many men find particularly responsive to stimulation are the corona, and the frenulum. Repeated stimulation of this structure will cause orgasm and ejaculation in some men."

For more cock-sucking tips, please read How to Suck Cock: a 14 Lesson Tutorial

Gorgeous, naked men in the shower

It has been a momentous week on my gay journey!

1. I am now the teacher-advisor for our school's Gay Straight Alliance, sharing the duties with a dynamic young woman teacher from our 7 / 8 divison.  I asked my our principal who was just delighted to have me help out.  I decided that it was time!

2.   As the main GSA contact for our school, I'm also on the board office Diversity Committee which includes all the GSA teacher-advisors and a few "higher-ups" including the Education Officer, a Superintendent and other important people.  It is one of the highest-profile committees in our school division with a huge push to promote LGBTQ initiatives.  Most of these are accomplished through the GSA advisors.

3.  My first Pride Week 2014 planning committee meeting happens tomorrow night!  It will be very exciting to meet the LGBTQ movers and shakers in my town. 

4.  I had a sweet lunchtime date with Big Red who is one of my all-time favourite men.  The "date" was in my car (for maximum privacy) and it consisted of eating the food I brought, catching up and sweetly kissing. Big Red and I are planning a sleepover date in a few days.

5.  I have a session with a therapist / marriage counsellor this week, arranged through our EAP.  I need some professional guidance to deal with my wife's abusive texting and out-of-control spending on the kids for which she expects me to pay half.   I need to stop both of these without burning the bridges between us entirely or triggering some retaliatory attack. 

6. I had the rare opportunity to swim from 12:00 noon to 1:00 pm on a school day.  We are presently on a new, "between semesters" schedule.  What a revelation!  The locker room, communal shower and sauna were packed with many extremely fit men who were squeezing in a lunchtime workout. 

The men were in the 30 - 50 age range, mainly in the professional / business category and the vast majority were trim, athletic with well-defined, natural muscles. This is very different that the 8:00 am scene which consists mainly of elderly men in the +70 age range.

One handsome early 30ish guy in particular was the finest example of man-flesh that I've ever seen in person.... and he was showering, fully naked, just a few feet away from me!  He was finer than of the guys pictured here.

I can hardly describe my reaction as he faced me and soaped up his ass crack,  beautiful uncut cock and balls.   I felt dizzy with palpitations and shortness of breath and I was consumed with lust and desire.   It was almost like a religious experience but it was tinged with deep regret that I could only look but not touch.  I could hardly believe that such a perfect man could even exist.

TMI: Super Bowl

Too Much Information is a regular feature by Sean of Just a Jeep Guy.  I always enjoy answering these questions!

SUPER BOWL XLVIII
1. Do you know who's playing in this year's Super Bowl?  I haven't a clue.  It's a football game, isn't it?  ( .... just kidding)

2. Do you watch the Super Bowl for the game, uniforms, commercials or food?  I've never watched a Super Bowl ever in my entire life;  not even for a second!   I'd have no interest in the game at all. I wouldn't have a clue what was going on.

But I'd love to see closeups of the muscular footballers in football tights with a special interest in seeing juicy asses,  great packages and an occasional visible penis line.

I've been invited, year after year, to a Super Bowl party given my dearest colleagues in my department at school.   I've always declined because of the demands of parenting when my kids were young (when my wife was never at home) and in recent years, to the exhaustion and stress of my coming-out and divorce drama.

I was also concerned that I'd be bored silly, having to watch a game which dragged on for hours.  But I now realize that the Super Bowl party was more about the socializing than the actual game itself.

I plan to attend the Super Bowl party this year.  With minimal family commitments and all my children fully independent, I am certainly available and it would fit right in with my goal of improving my social life.

3. What's your favorite food?  I like ALL party food:  wings, guacamole and the like.  But for this Super Bowl party,  I plan to bring several special home-made pizzas, my specialty, pre-assembled but baked fresh on the spot.

4. Are you entered into any Super Bowl Pools?  No.  There are only hockey pools in my Canadian workplace.

5. If you don't watch the big game, do you do something else?  I would love to have some sexytime with a hot man.


6. What sports do you watch?  I've gone an entire lifetime without watching any professional sports at all.  I always considered it a colossal waste of time!  I much prefer actually doing athletic pursuits myself rather than watching someone else do them.

The only team sport which I cannot miss is Olympic hockey  which invariably sees the Canadian men's team in the gold medal final.  I like watching other Olympic sports too, but only those involving athletic men in spandex.  These include diving, water polo,  rowing, bob-sledding and luge.  I have no interest in the sports itself.


BONUS
Are you the Quarterback or the Receiver?   I am working on being skilled at both.  ;-)

My first stalker!!

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A big gay fish in a small pond

This is a very quick Monday morning post before I head off to school.  After a week of balmy weather, we're back in a temporary deep freeze with temperatures of -30 C.  So here are some pictures from Hard in my Speedos to warm our thoughts.

A while back, a guy I was "dating"  (two restaurant dinners + one hookup at his house) described me as an "A-list Gay."  I don't have the slightest idea what he meant.

I mainly wear clothing from thrift shops supplemented with the odd item stolen from lost-and-found boxes, rarely brush my hair let alone use "product", and regularly show up at school with my shirt inside-out, wearing mismatched socks.

I'd consider designer Tom Ford to be an A-list Gay on the world scene.  For a Canadian gay A-list, I'd include one of the many high-ranking gay Canadian politicans such as Premier Kathleen Wynne or singer kd lang.

But soon, I will be rubbing elbows with the A-list gays in my remote hick town.  I've been accepted to serve on the organizing committee for our local Pride festivities!  Woo-hoo!  In fact, I think they want me to join two committees.... one dealing with LGBTQ issues all year long and one focused on Pride Week.  I may not have time for both.

I haven't meet most of the committee members yet but they are definitely the gay movers and shakers in town.  The list includes an elected politician, a teachers' union president, business leaders and people who head up social service agencies.

The committee also includes the gay 'power couple' I mentioned recently, the principal of our largest elementary school and his teacher-husband.

By serving on this committee, I will certainly meet LGBTQ folks from a wider circle than the people I usually deal with which could only be a good thing.  As well, I will be able to push forward the LGBTQ cause at a different level and continue my quest to be a great, gay role model for LGBTQ folks of all ages.
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On the hookup front, I found myself accidentally triple-booked for Sunday with men who were 25, 27 and 44, all of whom wanted to drive the 30 km to my house for some sexytime.  I had scheduled the 25 year old to visit me to visit me on Saturday but he was called into work so we rescheduled for Sunday.  He's a handsome, funny and quite chubby, a licensed practical nurse who is horny as hell and a bear-in-training.

I hadn't met the 27 year old before but he'd been messaging me for months on pof.com, "playing footsie", I call it.   He's employed, inexperienced, slim and handsome but perhaps not too smart judging from his profile name:  Frendly_Guy_1987.  lol

I had invited him over on Sunday but I meant last week, but he texted me yesterday saying that he was ready to come over, right then!

Then, I got a text from Miner Dude who was in town for the weekend from his home 300 km away.  Fun fact:  he works in a hard-rock mine which is 4.2 km deep!  He's the shy aboriginal guy who I've been with several times before, a sweet kisser and quite skilled in pleasuring men.

But it was no contest:   I ignored the text from the 27 year old  (I'll apologize to him today), told the 25 year old that we would get together another day and invited Miner Dude over for a few hours of sweet sexytime.  I now consider him a true Fuck Buddy, my first.